Nothing matters. And that’s a good thing. As I am facing a certain meaninglessness on my journey something magical happens in the background: Detachment. It’s Friday evening and I’m lying on my bed, scrolling through social media and exploring what’s happening in the world and in people’s minds.
And I notice that I am detached. As in, I see people having fun, sharing their achievements, weddings, holidays, party pictures, the usual stuff. I’m excited for them and at the same time, I’m happy in my bed on a Friday night by myself. And the worries of the past about what to do with my life and what about the future and that I need to achieve x and y are floating away.
What’s the point anyway? Whether I am a billionaire or not, nothing will be different. You might think that’s crazy and my old self most certainly would have agreed but right now I am like everything is perfect. And I wonder what’s next. What is the point of being alive is my next question as I don’t really see one. Hence the meaninglessness.
So I send a message to my coach who’s way ahead in the journey and
I ask her: What am I here to do? (Curious about what she might reply… )
She writes back: On the Drama Triangle, what do rescuers need to become?
I respond: Coach.
Her: Exactly. I didn’t become a coach by accident. (She has an unbelievable story, that’s for another post).
Me: But what’s the point of coaching? Life is an illusion, we’re all just playing here. (I’m referring to that I’m just temporarily in a body and I will be leaving it in the not-too-distant future aka when I die.)
Her: Coaching as a purpose is different than Coaching as a marketed profession.
Me: I understand. But what’s the point of real coaching? We will all die and return to source.
Her: You have been meditating seriously for how many days?
Me: 61.
Her: Ok. Let's talk about it again at day 122.
Me: Haha. Hmmmm. Ok.
Her: Which posted at 3:33pm (her local time). Mastery is around the corner.
Me: (Looking up the meaning of angel number 333 - I might write about this another time) "You are completely surrounded, protected, loved, and guided by the benevolent ascended masters."
Wow. Beautiful. I’ve been seeing angel master numbers like 111, 222, 333, etc. all the time recently. Way more than it could be by sheer coincidence. Anyway, so I think to myself: Sweet. This is the first time that I am actually completely quiet inside, no need to be or achieve anything, no need to coach or help someone so I just wonder what’s the point and what’s next. And I got my answer.
I respond: Indeed, the meaninglessness might be the precursor to dropping the ego and then magic can happen because there’s nothing in me worrying about me anymore.
Her: 🙏❤️
I feel I am finally getting somewhere in my search. A place full of peace and presence where I don’t need to do or get anything instead I surrender to what life brings me and let the universe guide me. And from there, no longer constrained by anything, everything becomes possible.
I’d love to take this opportunity to thank my coach Lisa for all that she has done and the million ways in which she has served me and my development relentlessly from a place of love. I like to call her my angel that has brought so much light, love and mastery into the dark recesses of my thinking rather than knowing mind. Lisa, I had no idea what journey we would be getting on when we first met and not even my wildest imagination could have predicted where it would lead us to. Thank you for being in my life. ❤️
The Drama Triangle is a powerful relationship framework to understand - in work life as much as in private life. We spend most of our time in this Drama Triangle, until we become aware of it. If you’d like to learn more about it, send me a message and I will share more resources and videos with you.
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