As I got up from my meditation, I realised there are no mistakes. Whatever I did, do and will do, they are just steps in my journey called life. And then, there will come a moment when I die.
This might sound rather sombre but it is all but that. The reality that there is an end to my life is actually hugely empowering. Because it means, I can live full out, there is no need to worry, to be anxious, to regret. Yes, of course, my mind loves to do all of these things. And that’s the illusion. That is my mind making up stories about who I am, what life I should live and what could go wrong. But these are just thoughts.
The Reality is - with capital R vs. subjective reality with a small r - that there is nothing to be worried about nor anything to be achieved. These are all illusions of my mind. What I am here for is an experience and to grow and expand through this experience. And the more graceful I can walk this journey, the more love, presence and kindness I bring to it, the more beautiful it will be both for me and everyone around me.
You see, my mind is here to worry about me, to make sure I survive and that I have as many resources as possible and live an as safe as possible and as convenient as possible life I can. But that's a confusion and hence I spent most of my life with distractions, chasing those things. And that’s what we individually and collectively all do, chase these distractions as our minds keep us in the illusion.
Don’t get me wrong, I am in this illusion just as everybody else most of the time. And at the same time, I work hard at leaving it and connect with capital R Reality. And when I do I become present, I am in awe with everything, I relax, my breath slows down and gets deeper, I exhale, I smile and I laugh about the “normal” me that is stuck in my mind.
Just this morning, when I got out of the shower and looked into the mirror I laughed and said to me: “Vincent, you crazy guy, what are you doing?!” And I was referring to both my journey of awakening as well as to the “normal” me that is stuck in the illusion of chasing all kinds of meaningless things. The old “crazy” me is “crazy” as in distracted with the material illusion. The new “crazy” me is “crazy” as in different from how we look at life most of the time.
So who’s right? It’s not about being right. There are no mistakes. However, there is an efforted way of being and there is an effortless one. The former is squarely focused on the material plane and the world outside of us. I believe, in time we all learn that no matter what we do and have, that lasting happiness never quite arrives. This is because we are looking for something outside of us that's always inside of us.
And then there's the effortless way and that one is focused on being. That’s the me that looks out of the window and just appreciates what it sees. And it’s the one that types these lines and is in awe that I can think, my fingers type, a computer shows them on a screen that I can see and then I can click a button and all of you can read it and get a glimpse of my being and thereby it touches your being. Isn’t that a miracle? All of it. Just think about how my brain coordinates all the muscles it takes to type these lines. Or how yours decodes the pxiels on this screen into something that has meaning. Wow.
And I can do so much more than just thinking and typing. I can create an experience for people, I can help them shift their perspective of life so they can navigate it with more grace, presence and love and thereby experience the beauty we are all meant to experience before we leave again this plane of existence.
We can all do so much more than we think when we break out of the confines of the mind that imprisons us. We are all these powerful creators yet we spend most of our time worrying about the mundane. There’s nothing wrong about the mundane. What is wrong about it and what makes our experience negative is that we get stuck in the mundane rather than making the mundane sacred. Appreciating every breath we take, every word we speak and hear, feeling the energetic exchange when we converse with someone as much as when we make love to them.
This is what I am here for. To wake myself up from the mundane and make every moment of my life a sacred one. And if I can thereby touch others simply through my way of being, then I am full, my life is complete. No teaching, no lecturing, no knowing it better. If I can bring divinity to everything I do, through who I am being, then I have lived the most beautiful life I can. Not wasting a single moment but being fully present in every one of it. No matter what it is. It's simply all experience.
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